‚ô• Sunday, September 14, 2008
the sept holiday week really changed the way i see things. it never felt so.. different. OMG, CAN PEOPLE STOP SIGNING IN AND OUT.!! damn.
i never thought that that kind of feeling was possible again. i thought it was just a moment of craze. but it did. it changed everything. i finally realized that it is possible. not with you of course. haha. but wells. exams are in 2 mnths and i seem to be playing more now than ever. whats wrong with me. i cant wait till exams are over though. i wanna go on a holiday.
but as of now, im feeling kind of down maybe. ive got no clear idea why. everyting i think of smth, it makes sense, but when i give it a second thought it doesnt anymore.
your presence seems to have enlightened many of us as ive told you before. both in a good way and bad. but this moment of realization is really tough and i honestly dont wish to deal with is cause wells, i think i'm afraid i may make the wrong decision.?? but it kinda sucks. my dad is coming back on tues and my sis is leaving on fri. i wonder if my dad will leave with my sis, i sure hope so.
i'm so supposed to be studying, but i cant bring myself to. dont know why. maybe when you leave things will turn out all right.?? but i think you're just an excuse to all these. haha. i have this feeling that even when you're gone i'll still be as lazy as ever. you know. i really think i shld start keeping a proper diary. cause online dairies are not at all private and ahha of course i cant say everything here. but what am i gonna do once ive filled the book.? throw it away.? thats just stupid. keep it.?? what for.? what if someone found it.? damn. its really stupid.
